I feel incredibly lucky to have met so many amazing people. I'd like to leave this blog entry open for others to share examples of living in such a way that their possibility was reality. What did it take? Be courageous and share!
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One of my big dreams has always been to hit the road and camp across the country. (Big time) I finally did it! Livin' was hard sometimes, but overall I feel blessed for the opportunity, support of friends, and experiences along the way.
ReplyDeleteAlso, another part of that dream was to move to the Southwest area of the country; and get out of Wisconsin. I have finally done that, too.
Starting over is exciting but terrifying at the same time. Oftentimes it is very lonely as well. There are truly loving souls that I had to leave behind. There was someone really special in my life, too, a significant other who chose not to walk with me. I considered my options with a heavy heart, but I truly knew that deep inside I had to fulfill my quest, as my heart had been aching for it for most of my life already. It still breaks my heart when I think of him, but I know it was necessary for me to go.
I also left family and friends behind whom I dearly love, but in a lot of ways I feel as if some of them were holding me back. (My own brother still doesn't understand my quest and profound needs ~ or at the very least even TRYING to fulfill them!)
Either way I decided to step up and finally take control of my own life, instead of settling for something I know is not going to make me happy, and complain about it (which seems to be the trend).
I have a deep need to photograph and document my experiences. I feel that I'm sort of a record keeper in that regard. I also absolutely need to be creative and point out some of the interesting and beautiful things I see ~ while using my own imagination and challenging imagination of others. It's a blessing and a curse. The blessing is that I'm never bored, the curse is that there are so many ideas swirling around my head constantly and sometimes it's hard to find the means to do them!
If there's something that just keeps bugging you over and over again for so long ~ there's a reason for it, and you just have to do it. It will never get out of your system until you do! You don't always need to know what that reason is... sometimes it will unfold as events occur, sometimes you will never know. Either way, you grow and learn as a person, become more humble and human, and that's what's important.
The old cliche still holds true ~ "It's not about the destination but the journey"
Can we as humans really truly grow in stagnation and refusal to make change? No. Listen to your soul and follow it with Love, and you will be alright.
Take care
Love,
~ Griff
The only thing that has ever made any opportunity in my life a reality: a willingness to be uncomfortable. Anything and everything you want to do will face some sort of opposition by someone. The saddest part about doing what you love is when you’re in the process of executing your dreams; people always think you’re crazy. They always think they know how you should live your life. Then, when people see how truly beneficial it was, they praise you! It’s weird. However, the goal is to use that opposition as a test…to see how much you really want it. If you are passionate enough, nothing anyone will say will scare you away. THAT is when you know that the particular possibility should indeed become a reality, and that you have the fervor to make it.
ReplyDeleteTo feel comfortable, even when you have obtained goals is complacentcy. To be comfortable is for people who don’t continue to dream moreover explore. No matter what, beware of idleness! Keep those “itchy feet” and always be on the edge, always close to the limit. That is when amazing things you never thought you would or could do happen. Live out of your car, explore caves, jump off bridges, and learn harmonica…all at once! It is when you’re the most discomforted that you know each exhalation of air you breathe is real and not one carefully executed by the excuse of destiny. It is when we stop making excuses for our idleness and make new, unfamilar opportunities a personal promise, that we begin to truly live.
"I'm sick of following my dreams. I'm just going to ask them where they're goin', and hook up with them later."
-Mitch Hedberg
As a kid growing up on the Mil-town blacktops, I always dreamed of becoming a college basketball player, not even necessarily an nba player. I achieved that dream, and even got a chance to see several countries while playing professionally. I thought that this was what i was supposed to do as part of my duty by serving the Most High's purpose. Boy was I wrong. Then I dabbled in little music, where I learned to better express myself without worrying about backlash from others who didn't understand. I also learned to make beats, and to record my own music. Surely this was "it", as in my purpose for carrying out that duty so to speak. After all, I met some of the coolest people that I had ever met (including Krista L.), and it felt so good to me. But as it turns out, this wasn't the way for me to create for the people either. One day I was sitting back thinking of some of the silly things I did as a kid. I vividly remembered using my mom's detergent boxes (some empty, others not) to make a movie projector, and cutting paper into filmstrip, and drawing out my stories. I cut slits into the box, and I would pull the paper through so that you could see the little drawings one square at a time. My first movie that I made for my mom was "Dracula". I was so excited that I told her that I was going to make a second movie called "Dracula Gets the Girl". My mom told me that if I told everyone that Dracula gets the girl then they might not come to see it, so I changed the name to "Dracula" part 2. I think I might've been pre-k, or in kindergarten, going half days only. Coming back to reality, it struck me at that moment that the countless number of movies that I've seen, the travel, and the meetings of such wonderful and different types of people, all led me to where I needed to be...making movies!!! In my haste, I have completed some projects that were so much cooler in my head than they appear on disc. I realize also, that the more I think I know about this game, the more I find out that I don't know. But, true to form, the film game has continued to enrich my life with some fantastic and creative people. As well as keeping me up into the wee hours with movie ideas that could get me executed! I have since taken my show on the road to Nashville, Tennessee, and boy I can only say what a wonderful place to create. I miss Milwaukee, and my very beautiful friends there, but the purpose is to create. The work isn't mine to keep, nor do I decide where it goes, and who it reaches. My job is just to "get er done"! I have grown so much in my craft, yet I have so very far to go. In athletics you hear about an athlete reaching their "prime". I just figured out recently that an athlete reaches their prime when their mental (knowledge) and their physical (athleticism) are at the same point. When you are young, you can run and jump all day, but mentally you don't know "jack"! When you're older, you know just about everything you need to know to be successful, but your body does not respond like it used to. The same holds true with creating films. My mind has all of these "world changing" ideas, but my skill is not at that point to carry them out effectively yet. But I'm drinking milk now, and soon I will be...I think you guys get the picture. Krista, thank you so much for allowing this special thing to happen for us all. You are truly an Angel. I will leave you all with this, "within the answers, lie the questions"...Peace and much love.
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For me publishing role playing games has always been something I've wanted to do. I made a lot of mistakes over the years but I think I've just about got my act together. Sometimes those mistakes can teach your more than your successes, at least in my opinion.
ReplyDeleteI love how you write and admire your responsible vulnerability.
ReplyDeleteRobert White (author of "Living an Extraordinary Life")