... that when I lived in Milwaukee I wrote a song called "ordinary electricity." My friend helped me record it. Basically, it was supposed to be a little paradoxical - a way of expressing that as human beings our existence in itself is extraordinary.... And that all that is ordinary is already inherently extraordinary. One line states, "we're no Gods, just ordinary electricity..." But how amazing and mind-blowing is that??? We were born - and the "is" is the greatest miracle.
AND, I actually set up the email account extraordinaryelectricity@gmail.com before I even took this seminar on living an extraordinary life. It was going to be for music-related business but I have other emails for that. So this one sits here hardly used at all - Just waiting to be utilized for some extraordinary purpose.
I am now in seminars that reinforce all this. Somewhere along the way I forgot, or was distracted, or confused - And I still am... But being in the conversation for what is possible reminds me - and basically brings me back to the only thing I know for sure. That I am.
I am being ordinary in the area of MONEY! I am settling with what I have because I feel that I have to compromise in my daytime job in order to have the extra time to pursue my other interests! I am pretending that "compromise" is reality. AND I am pretending that I DO have enough money to cover all my needs and wants and then I don't cut back on unnecessary items and wants.
The impact on all this is that I when an emergency comes up I'm ill-prepared, I worry, I feel bad about myself... But also, I feel that I am not realizing my full potential and that I will never really know what I am capable in the area of my interests. I feel empty when I'm not exploring my artistic potential. I feel useless and I feel like a fake.
Forget that!
My new way to be is courageous and self-expressed! I will bring courage to my artistic endeavors and will commit to doing what I love. And I won't be sorry and apologetic and feel bad about it. I will make my talents a priority because they are gifts from GOD and will help me provide to others in more ways than I can imagine. This is where my miracles will occur because ordinarily, I would live inside of "settling" and "surviving." Let me die creating, contributing to this world passionately and lovingly and courageously instead of being a silent slave.
Do you feel any connection to this?
The new way to be is COURAGEOUS and SELF-EXPRESSED. JOIN ME???
Yes...the IS of life is great, including the IS's of our four legged friends. Our cat "The Grinch" was pretty special. However, he no longer IS. Due to some health issues, we had to put him down today. "The Grinch" was a great cat and in fact "selected" me. When a kitten, Donna and I wanted to select a pooch for each other (Hawk) as our wedding present to each other. In the process, we happened to walk into the kitty cages to see them. I picked up a tiger cat and had no connection with it. Donna pointed out "The Grinch" as particularly cute and lovable as he was REALLY trying to get our attention through the cage. The other kitten were just going about their business. The Grinch was completely focused on us. Being a softie for cute animals, I picked him up and his card, as if I was going to adopt him too, when we already had 3 other animals at home. Upon leaving to adopt Hawk, I decided to return The Grinch to his cage...5 animals was simply too many - so I returned him. As fate would have it, when I returned back to the front desk, I noticed that I left his adoption card there, so I picked it up and walked back to return it. The Grinch had already gone to the back of his cage and was kind of curled up just sitting and not having anything to do with the other kittens in the cage, almost pouting. When I opened the door, he turned his head and saw me. He proceeded to crawl over all the other kittens to the gate of the cage, put his paws through the cage, and started waving them at me and meowing like mad. Well, the adoption card didn't go back into the pouch and The Grinch became a member of our family that day. He was wonderful cat. Whenever we had a family gathering or party, he was the only of our 5 animals that would be right out there mingling just as if he was human. The Grinch's IS made my IS better. I carried him home when he joined us 13 years ago and I carried him in and held him when he was put to sleep & closed his eyes the last time on his way to his new home today. I will forever miss The Grinch's IS!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you shared this. It's very moving. You all harmonized so well with each other. Grinch was definitely loving and I'll always remember that.
ReplyDeleteTimes are hard right now. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever achieve my dreams. I feel that people are born successful but in the midst of time learn to become average. It is hard sifting through the delusions of a programmed world and trying to teach yourself how to return to what is natural. Syncing up with family and friends is all about good timing and strong management, focus and concentration. Have you ever been in a room sometimes and something about the air grows thin? This is a sure sign that the level of connection has been misplaced. But the responsibility for ones happiness belongs to the individual and that is a right that no setting, event or circumstance can change. In each individual lies the power to return to the natural world as you envisioned it, or remembered it, or ideally want it to become. For every impulse of electricity in your body is creative and wants to be expelled like the way we used to when we were children. First came the thought (that wonderful imagination) and then the impulse to do or say, and after, we made it so with commitment because it was true to me and true to you, my friend. What I have learned so far as an adult is that relaxation is key. Without relaxation a lot of things that we rightly are to do as humans become deformed as they enter the instrument of our body. The instrument itself sets up resistance through tension. When that happens, a person cannot achieve a real relation between what he is thinking and the expression which should be part of that thought or experience. The expression becomes contaminated. For me, mental tension is much more destructive then merely pure physical tension. But as I just learned for myself, sometimes the talent of a person finally reveals itself for the first time so fully and so unexpectedly, that the results are startling. When a person is relaxed they become completely responsive. Their instrument gives forth a new depth of resonance. Emotion that has been habitually held back suddenly rushes forth. The person becomes real again-not merely simple or natural. They become fully concentrated. They unveil totally unexpected aspects and elements of themselves but with such a degree of ease and authority that it seems literally to have taken off a mask, to have emerged from a disguise that previously had smothered and concealed their true personality. And yet all you did was relax…
ReplyDeleteKarl I am so blessed to have you as a brother. You have such a great mind and I really see your commitment to what is possible artistically and as a human being. I hope you continue to express thoughts like these as a way to share with others the amazing human being you are.
ReplyDeleteThanks for inviting me to your blog Krista. My path in this crazy existance that we call life has taken me to so many great and fantastic people. I guess is goes along with the journey that all of us are on. We really never know the person we may cross paths with next. Odd that this blog was created the very last December of this century. Stay well and have a peace filled season.
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